Testerone Levels Dropping

I have been smearing testosterone cream on my body for many years to help with... performance in the bedroom.  I have to admit it helps with memory and energy levels too.  I talked to the doc about keeping the wife happy in the bedroom.  He prescribed me Cialis.  It works well for me. Six months ago I started smearing on half of what I was.  Testosterone levels have fallen.  When I was using a full packet my levels were in the 420.  Using half a packet my levels was 234.  I am having a harder time remembering names.  I don't want to work out any more.  So memory and drive are impacted.  I will stay at half a packet.  Make the new years resolution to start working out again and go on a diet. BTW, I am 6' 3" tall and today weighed 252 lbs.  My weight a year ago was 228.  At 6' 3" I am not convincing anyone I am a woman, but I like to to wear pretty clothes.